¡Aquí estamos, y no nos vamos¡
May. 1st, 2026 09:04 pmSo yes. Sang and chanted up a storm. Marched until I got mildly footsore. Practiced my Spanish comprehension, and honestly, both official language (our mayor and a county supervisor both read proclamations out to the crowd) and prayers are good for that. I do mean that about prayers, too. I am unexpectedly grateful for the opportunity given me by faith leaders and interpreters on the mic - one pastor, one rabbi. Then went down State Street and had a late lunch at a restaurant pretty definitely run by members of the immigrant community. Taste of Sichuan makes delicious seafood noodle wonton soup, for any local folks so inclined. The relative I was with wasn't, and said, summarily, yuck! :)
I don't believe we had any arrests, disturbances, or difficulties today. If we did, someone clue me in. And if I'm being entirely honest, a significant portion of a high school arriving all at once, doubling the assembled crowd and getting a jubilant welcome by the people already there? That was worth the whole day. I wish I'd seen West and Memorial arrive.
The Merry Month of May
May. 1st, 2026 07:04 pmKnowing that I've failed at this resolution before, I planned for success: laid out warm clothing the evening before, set up the coffee maker (yeah, I know, I only drink decaf now, but it's a ritual), and set my alarm for 4:30am. Yes, you read that correctly. The event was scheduled to start at 5:20 and the map app said it would take me half an hour to get to Inspiration Point in Tilden Park, so that seemed like the optimal waking time.
This did not take into account that there would be dense fog on the winding back-roads up the east side of the hills. It also didn't take into account that my directions app had an entirely different idea about where "Inspiration Point" was located. (I think there are two places by that name in the general area?) So I drove back and forth on one stretch of Grizzly Peak Road three times before I figured out the problem and finally was able to work out the right directions. (It didn't help that I've only ever driven to Inspiration Point from the Berkeley side of the hills before.
But I arrived at least a quarter hour before the dawn, so ritual was satisfied. I got to see half a dozen dances, participated in the singing of May Day carols, and danced in the massive Sellenger's Round circle.
When I was a little kid, in my family, May Day meant crafting little baskets made of woven paper, then filling them with flowers and leaving them on neighbors' doorsteps. I have no idea where that custom came from. I don't think it was a general thing that people did, just something my mom taught us.
After driving back home, I decided that I wanted to continue to drastically break routine for the day (and celebrate the one year anniversary of my retirement), and driving through the hills had inspired me to take a drive up to the summit of Mount Diablo and spend some time looking out over the vistas and generally just hanging out in scenic nature for several hours. I gazed admiringly (but not at all enviously) at the bicyclists who made the same trek. That is way beyond any bicycling ambitions I might have. I'm not big on hills.
And now, here it is a little after 7pm and my body is reminding me that I got up at four-fucking-thirty this morning and I should go to bed already.
Happy May Day!
May. 1st, 2026 10:12 pmI have a lovely phone call with KC.
FwF was very enjoyable. EW pointed me at Gladiator Garageworks products as possible stainless steel pantry items. I saw their shelf liner and was like, hey, someone did it! I had been discussing this earlier in the day with someone else (KC? Husband? Not sure?), as a way to make wire shelving work for small objects but had not actually tracked any down yet. After seeing the Gladiator black ones, I went looking and sure enough, the Regency shelving that I like at webstaurant has clear acrylic liners available. Very, very cool!
Today’s sticky buns were exceptional.
New York Public Library
May. 1st, 2026 09:05 pm
(I didn’t pay my respects to Fortitude this visit.)
And this is the Rose Main Reading Room…

When you see it in the movies, it would seem to be right inside the front door. But it’s actually up on the third floor. Notice how high the ceiling is. Also note, if you want to see it, it’s only open to the public for an hour, at 10am.
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May the First.
May. 1st, 2026 09:18 pmIt's probably for the best I'm not upstate with my younger brother R. and his wife G. for a multitude of reasons, among them being the movie G. went to see with her friends tonight. As much as I like supporting movies about women, there's no way The Devil Wears Prada 2 is going to be as much fun or as good to look at as Project Hail Mary. Even if it's not in IMAX.
Meanwhile, I'm going to the opera on Sunday with my parents, and it's got me thinking maybe I won't go to services tomorrow, simply on the grounds of not quite wanting three days in a row of my parents. I don't know what I'd do with the day, just spend it by myself. I'll see how I feel in the morning.
Dept. of May Day
May. 1st, 2026 08:34 pmThank you for showing up. We may be down, but we're not out. Not yet, and - if we work hard - not ever.

LOTR Re-Reading Running Thoughts - to Mid-TTT
May. 1st, 2026 06:13 pm(LOTR spoilers, if anyone cares...)
Aragorn
Original (pre-Viggo) Aragon often gets described as too perfect, and I see why. I don't find him a super fascinating character either, but I had not clocked how protracted his inner struggle is over leading the fellowship after the fall of Gandalf. He has multiple iterations of the "we must do without hope" idea, which, in Tolkien's philosophy, is a clear sign you're not thinking properly. Admission: In an earlier entry on this, I unwittingly quoted Bakshi (facepalm)!
He recurrently talks about how his decisions as a leader have gone wrong--and he's not totally wrong about that. He fails to track what's going on with Boromir, fails to keep track of Frodo (and Sam). Interestingly, he loses Frodo and Sam, in part, because he decides to climb the Emyn Muil to check things out from its famous vantage point, and that's not a bad decision in itself, but it is explicitly driven, in part, by ego, by his desire to sit on the seat of kings, and that seems not accidental. Later, against Legolas's advice, he chooses to rest rather than keep chasing the Orcs, which may have quashed their chance of actually catching the Orcs.
That's a lot of struggle with fallibility, and it's fairly easy to miss because it's minor. It's minor because Aragorn operates from a place of good intention and time-tested knowledge and morals. This makes me think of karma as a seed that may or may not fall into fertile soil. Each of those little losses of hope or imperfect decisions would carry karma (in a Buddhist frame), but they don't fall into fertile soil because Aragorn has--to torture the metaphor--been consistently cleaning the shit so there's nothing for them to grow into.
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Collage Journaling: four embellished cards
May. 1st, 2026 09:43 pmI remember as a young child participating in a maypole ceremony at school, where you wind the ribbons round the pole. It was pretty.
The best thing that happened today was I jogged for the first time on the ankle since I sprained and it did okay. Also the partner of a client mentioned wanting to add me as a regular another day so that was a nice vote of confidence.
The wife of another client gave me some blank greeting cards and I embellished them.

"Thursday" Recs
May. 1st, 2026 08:39 pmDo you have a rec for this week? Just reply to this post with something queer or queer-adjacent (such as, soap made by a queer person that isn't necessarily queer themed) that you'd, well, recommend. Self-recs are welcome, as are recs for fandom-related content!
Or have you tried something that's been recced here? Do you have your own report to share about it? I'd love to hear about it!
Hötorgets Tunnelbana in Stockholm, Sweden
May. 1st, 2026 04:00 pm
Metro Station Hötorget, a glimpse of the 1950s in Stockholm. The metro station opened in 1952 under the name Kungsgatan. In 1957 it was changed to Hötorget. The station is a good example of a preserved architecture from the beginning of the metro in Stockholm.
The station has a very high conservation value with well-preserved 1950s architecture, including original tiles in seven different shades of blue (from the now-closed well-known factory Upsala-Ekeby), cast original signs with relief letters, and the well-known red-orange trash bins that used to be at all stations/stops.
During 2024–2025, an extensive restoration of the platform room took place, where many parts have been restored to the original 1950s design. In connection with this work, four advertising signs from this period have also been reproduced, which have been installed together with the original station name signs "Kungsgatan" in the middle of the track walls.
Write Every Day: Day 1 (that has a Groundhog Day feeling to it, doesn't it?)
May. 1st, 2026 06:32 pmTally for April 16-30 is now updated; please check to make sure I have it correct!
My check-in: Rabbit rabbit! I dunno, y'all. I'm between projects and struggling to find things I even want to add an alibi sentence to. No writing yet today, but after I post I'm going to look for something iddyful to play with and see if that helps. Further bulletins as events warrant.
Day 1:
When you check in, please use the most recent post and say what day(s) you’re checking in for. Remember you can drop in or out at any time, and let me know if I missed anyone!
Lake Lewisia #1390
May. 1st, 2026 06:00 pm---
LL#1390
Unshelved strip originally published on Thu, 17 Mar 2016
May. 2nd, 2026 12:00 amThis classic Unshelved strip originally appeared on Thu, 17 Mar 2016.

Weekly Reading
May. 1st, 2026 05:29 pmMy Life in Propaganda
Memoir about growing up in communist Poland + the author's thoughts on propaganda in general. This was less interesting than I thought it would be, though I found the parts about how communism worked in Poland in particular to be very interesting and I wish there had been more of that.
Who Is Vera Kelly?
This is told in two timelines, the past when the MC is a teenager and the present when she's a spy in Argentina in the 60s. The first half or so of this was honestly so boring. I did enjoy it more in the second half, but it was really dragging and it didn't help that I was reading this on the Libby app and having connectivity issues while traveling (idk why it won't let me download the file to my phone). It seems like the second book might be more interesting, so I am going to check it out.
Killers of a Certain Age
Four middle aged women are retired assassins who now find themselves targeted by the organization they used to work with. This was a lot of fun. Definitely looking forward to the second book.
Ghost Roast
YA graphic novel about a girl whose dad is a ghost buster type and she herself (unbeknownst to him) can see and even speak with ghosts. This was cute but her friends were pretty awful and I kept expecting that they would either change and apologize for their behavior or she would realize they were awful and dump them, but neither of those happened.
Shiny Misfits
Middle grade graphic novel about a girl with cerebral palsy who loves to dance and is obsessed with going viral and becoming famous. The premise sounded cute but the pacing was all over the place and the dialogue was always trying to be quippy and just came off as obnoxious. Everything was just dialed up to 11 and it was kind of exhausing to read. The random talking (in rhymes, no less) cat also came off as another element that was supposed to be wacky and random but just fell flat for me. I was expecting to love this but was just disappointed. Very cute art, though.
Goodbye, Dolly!
I'm just going to c&p the blurb here: "When celebrity clone sheep Dolly dies, her adult Nepo Lambs come together for the first time to forge an identity as second-generation clones, confront their upbringing, and process their grief around their famous, trailblazing mother. Unreliably narrated by the ghost of Dolly in a mixed media style, GOODBYE, DOLLY! explores the connection, disconnection, hijinks, and despair of six siblings trying to put together the pieces of their broken family and forge a path to their wooly future."
I found this in a Little Library down the street from me and thought it could be interesting. Got home and found multiple copies of it, along with some other works by the author, in my Little Library, so I assume the author is local and trying to promote her stuff. I had to create the entry on goodreads and I feel bad that the first review it now has on there is two stars, but this was just too weird for me lol.
The Oddly Pedestrian Life of Christopher Chaos vol. 3
第五年第一百十一天
May. 2nd, 2026 09:07 am犬 part 7
猴, monkey; 狮, lion; 狱, prison ( pinyin )
(Interestingly to me, there are some characters that were 犬 radical until they were simplified, like 奖 and 兽. Changing not just shape but radical must have been so confusing...)
https://www.mdbg.net/chinese/dictionary?cdqrad=94
语法
4.3 part 1 通过, to pass all the way through/across something (geographically)
https://www.digmandarin.com/hsk-4-grammar
词汇
播放, to broadcast/to play; 广播, radio/etc. broadcast ( pinyin )
https://mandarinbean.com/new-hsk-4-word-list/
Guardian:
地星现在是一间熬人的大狱, Dixing now is an enormous torture prison
这个人是怎么通过镜子来变成另外一个人的模样, how did she pass through the mirror to become a different person
听广播, listen to the broadcast
Me:
你要通过山间关才能达到那个村庄。
节目到底要什么时候播放?
LargeMouthBass of Bliss
May. 1st, 2026 07:54 pmLast night I dreamed that the Sparrowhawk had asked me what I needed that I didn't have. I said that I didn't have a watch, and he bought me a gorgeous Breitling watch, the kind that astronauts and divers like. And then in the dream I saw my brother, and when he saw the watch, his eyes lit up. "Where did you get that watch?" he said. I sensed that he was longing to ask how much it cost, and how I was able to afford it. When I woke up, I was sad, because I thought I should have just given him the watch. And then I thought that I do have one thing that he would have liked to have: a chance to live longer. I suppose the expensive watch was dream language for more life, more precious time. And that I couldn't give him.
The day name is LargeMouthBass! That's funny, because large mouthed bass was another thing my brother liked. He loved bass fishing. And as Thoreau said, “Time is but the stream I go a-fishing in. I drink at it; but while I drink I see the sandy bottom and detect how shallow it is. Its thin current slides away, but eternity remains.”