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Apr. 23rd, 2026 04:37 amI still have this rolling nagging anxiety pain in the pit of my stomach.
If she wasn't ready to pull the trigger then she just should have texted me that the new boss needed a letter for insurance purposes.
“You’re the shock absorber. From the Titans’ point of view, you stop the masses from realising the extent of their subjugation. You relieve them of the need to exercise raw financial and political power in the protection of their interests where those interests collide with the law. But ... you also protect ordinary humans from the consequences of that subjugation as best you can. Yours is an equivocal profession. But I hear you’re not entirely an asshole.” [loc. 2879]
Cal Sounder, consultant detective, is hired to investigate the murder of a reclusive scientist, Roddy Tebbit, who died in his own home and apparently by his own hand. Complicating the matter is the fact that Tebbit was a Titan -- a recipient of a genetic therapy called T7 (possibly something to do with telomeres) which reverses ageing, increases muscle and bone density, and incidentally makes Titans literally larger than life. On the downside, it's extremely expensive; it affects memory; and the process can be very painful.
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I am still here.
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Reddit account is in a banned state. I am not emotionally invested in whether it is unbanned, but it would be nice. Posted a 250 character limited request to be unbanned tonight.
Friday i was booted out of the chat app that i use with Christine and that i stash all sorts of temporary data in the "saved messages" chat. I got back in but couldn't terminate the session from China for 24 hours. I've gone through all the data i had stashed and i am not happy about it's likely availability to bad actors but what are you going to do.
Today the cloud service that had $300 of charges on the 10th had more charges made against it, but they didn't go through because the payment method on the account hasn't been updated. I am glad i have a year's subscription instead of monthly billing. I think there's some particular vulnerability their system has around gift subscriptions.
I have a lot of energy in anticipating what is the next bad internet thing that i wish i could let relax. I did find some additional security settings on my phone i could turn on.
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I did much mowing and other yard work this weekend. For a moment everything seems idyllic except for invasive Youngia thunbergiana /Youngia japonica going to seed. Peony blooming! Iris blooming! Piedmont azalea blooming! lovely stands of fleabane blooming!
The pawpaw has set fruit, the blueberries and mulberries look very productive. I can see the impact of the drought in places and it worries me. Non trivial investment in plants this winter, and finding some dead woody plants that were over a year old disappoints me. I am glad that last year i planted a tree in my vegetable plot so i kept it alive more easily.
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Tuesday morning we went out very early to see if we could see comet C/2025 R3 (PANSTARRS). We didn't but it felt good to have the little adventure. But wowza, not used to very early mornings and then working all day.
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Bruno and Marlowe are making progress: Marlowe's assaults are less ... urgent? more performative? And Bruno is spending more time out of his room when she's outside.
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There are so many layers of entropy around me. I hope i can find a way to bring a little more order than disorder, but sometimes it feels like the disorder is winning.
All I am is shreds of doubt.