self-awareness and the desire to be known
Jun. 23rd, 2022 10:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I've been musing on self-awareness and on humans' desire to have machines be self-aware ever since the story about the guy at Google came out. My thoughts have run in all kinds of directions. For instance: about relationships up and down the awareness scale. Most of us likely have had relationships with beings more self-aware than we are (parents are generally more self-aware than toddlers, and all of us have been toddlers and had parents or others filling that role), and most of us likely have relationships with beings that are less self-aware, and/or differently aware, than we are.
Those relationships are not only with living things but with nonliving things: we have feelings about and express ourselves to our computers, phones, cars, coffee makers, microwaves ... These might not seem like relationships because they're so one-sided, but I think they are: we interact; they respond to our inputs; we respond to theirs. We don't expect our microwave to discourse with us on anything, but we do expect that if we press a button, it will shoot microwaves through something and heat it/cook it for us. We're happy when it meets our expectations and disappointed or worried or annoyed if it doesn't.
What I'm trying to suggest is that we have relationships with all kinds of things of different levels of awareness, and we're generally fine with that. But the more like us something or someone is, the more we seem to want its/their awareness to match ours. Misunderstandings that arise with people very close to us show how much we expect or depend on those close ones' awareness matching ours. But sometimes it doesn't. We say a thing, and to us it's pregnant with meaning and import, and the person we're talking to replies, and we feel they've understood! Their thoughts are running the same way, and their response shows that! Only to discover later that no, they were *not* thinking in the way we imagined, and furthermore, they had no idea that what we said carried so much weight for us.
Or we can be on the other side of that--having an innocent conversation one day, only to find out to our alarm that it had all kinds of other meanings for the other person.
Those differences are painful, but it would be a weird kind of tyranny, a kind of Borg-ness, to expect another human being to understand and respond to us perfectly ... impossible really, given that we can't even say, ourselves, what a perfect understanding or response would look like.
I was thinking, if a machine/AI could be so cleverly programmed that it could duplicate human-type reactions, human-type non sequiturs, human-type self-absorption from time to time, but also human-type friendly queries, supportive remarks, gratifying curiosity and so on---all based on code--would it matter that it was code that was generating those responses and not whatever it is that generates those things in a human? Could being in relationship with a machine/AI on its own terms mean accepting its machine-ness and not requiring it to duplicate organic human-ness?
What do you think?
Those relationships are not only with living things but with nonliving things: we have feelings about and express ourselves to our computers, phones, cars, coffee makers, microwaves ... These might not seem like relationships because they're so one-sided, but I think they are: we interact; they respond to our inputs; we respond to theirs. We don't expect our microwave to discourse with us on anything, but we do expect that if we press a button, it will shoot microwaves through something and heat it/cook it for us. We're happy when it meets our expectations and disappointed or worried or annoyed if it doesn't.
What I'm trying to suggest is that we have relationships with all kinds of things of different levels of awareness, and we're generally fine with that. But the more like us something or someone is, the more we seem to want its/their awareness to match ours. Misunderstandings that arise with people very close to us show how much we expect or depend on those close ones' awareness matching ours. But sometimes it doesn't. We say a thing, and to us it's pregnant with meaning and import, and the person we're talking to replies, and we feel they've understood! Their thoughts are running the same way, and their response shows that! Only to discover later that no, they were *not* thinking in the way we imagined, and furthermore, they had no idea that what we said carried so much weight for us.
Or we can be on the other side of that--having an innocent conversation one day, only to find out to our alarm that it had all kinds of other meanings for the other person.
Those differences are painful, but it would be a weird kind of tyranny, a kind of Borg-ness, to expect another human being to understand and respond to us perfectly ... impossible really, given that we can't even say, ourselves, what a perfect understanding or response would look like.
I was thinking, if a machine/AI could be so cleverly programmed that it could duplicate human-type reactions, human-type non sequiturs, human-type self-absorption from time to time, but also human-type friendly queries, supportive remarks, gratifying curiosity and so on---all based on code--would it matter that it was code that was generating those responses and not whatever it is that generates those things in a human? Could being in relationship with a machine/AI on its own terms mean accepting its machine-ness and not requiring it to duplicate organic human-ness?
What do you think?
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Date: 2022-06-23 08:59 pm (UTC)... this explains a lot about my childhood.
I think you have some really excellent points here about human nature and the nature of consciousness, but I admit this made me think about disconnects with my parents, with the kind of consciousness involved in being "Christ-minded" vs not.
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Date: 2022-06-23 09:11 pm (UTC)... I'm sorry it [by which I mean, this post] brings up painful memories, though.
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Date: 2022-06-23 09:53 pm (UTC)Oh goodness no apologies necessary! husg you
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Date: 2022-06-23 09:21 pm (UTC)And we have to acknowledge that other beings/things/people can only interact to us and respond to us according to their natures--which aren't static, and which we may not understand, so it's not like we should give a thing or a person a label once and for all and decide that's all we can expect--I'm not trying to say that--I'm just trying to say that we can love the clouds for being clouds without expecting them to interact with us the way our best friend from childhood used to interact with us.
And I feel like machines deserve that respect too: let us appreciate things that run by their programming or by their circuitry and wiring, how well they do what they are designed to do, without always yearning for them to be something else. Not that they'll mind if we do yearn, but it's probably better for our interior landscape if we're not always yearning for something to be something that it's not.
--When I look at that written out, it sounds rather negative, like a person saying, "Don't expect a woman ever to be more than a bobble-headed idiot; that's all she's capable of"--but I don't mean that. I only mean that we should take things/people as they are--as best we understand them--and let them show us when/if they're more/different. (But if they do show us, we need to be open to that and accept it.)
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Date: 2022-06-23 09:54 pm (UTC)I would like to think that we would have to, if it was truly sentient and we wanted a real relationship with it, just as we have to accept that other people are other people.
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Date: 2022-06-24 02:39 am (UTC)And you don't have the same kind of relationship with something that isn't sentient as you do with something that is.
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Date: 2022-06-24 01:18 pm (UTC)I have never understood offhand dismissals of animism-- not that you're dismissing anything! How on earth could one know about the consciousness of animals, let alone plants, fungi, waters, stones, the earth and moon and stars...? And electronics, which like us operate on electrical rates, have always seemed to me to bring their own sort of kinship with them.
I love what you say about relating to AI as itself, not as faulty-us.
And how I wish humans more usually treated other humans that way.
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Date: 2022-06-26 10:12 pm (UTC)(By us I don't necessarily mean you or me, personally, or all people, but people in general.)
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Date: 2022-06-27 11:09 am (UTC)And the "scary" factor makes me think about our other convo about using insects as fodder for creating monsters. We have a tendency to look at the worst or scary parts of something and amplify it enormously.